After the great run i had over the easter break i have taken quite a hit. My bankroll now lies at $880 :( I had plans of making this post and showing a ton of 60/40s that i have lost playing omaha in one particular session and blaming it on that, but upon reflection its obvious that its not the sole cause of destruction. After taking some nasty hits, i went down the classic road of gambling it up to make it back. This has involved pushing some very marginal hands and situations in an effort to regain what i lost. Often this would happen after buying into a higher table at a min buyin. I could double/triple my buyin and then push a draw and lose it all. Instead of just leaving it another buyin seems to be the best option. Then enter major tilt. Its incredible how much damage you can do to your roll in a few sessions like this. I've talked to a couple of players who have experienced similar a pain and they agree that you can feel the tension building in the front of your forehead, and you know you are self destructing. You know you are not playing your best game by any means but yet cannot take yourself away from the table. Even if you double once or twice usually the end result is the same, that you stay till all is lost.
With this all said my back is now against the wall. Its shape up or ship out time. Even though it kills me to do it, I'm dropping down the blind levels. This is absolutely necessary to get back on track. Its a new month and with that (hopefully) a new beginning. Most importantly i have got my hunger back. I'm gonna cream those 10c/25c tables, lol. I'm setting out some goals for this month. In order of preference here they are:
1. To gain complete attitude control at the tables at all times.
2. To increase my ratio of pots played to pots won.
3. To eliminate impulse reactions and eradicate tilt.
(-If I am forced to reload more than once I must sit out 10mins.)
4. To have fewer and longer sessions.
(-I am intending to post twice weekly now, and after every major session)
5. To double my bankroll.
On another note, Chris Ferguson has just started a $0to$10,000 mission on full tilt. Its definitely worth a look. I have no doubt he'll get there before me. Going to blame that one on time constraints, lol. This mission was done and blogged by a player on pacific by the name of McFly, i think. I read the blog before but i have lost the link. I'd love to add it to the blog list so if anyone comes across it could you please leave me the url.
Current Balance: $880